It is a sign from someone..

The picture made me gasp.  I support your decision.  The best we can do for our friends is give them time with us.  I hope time slows for you this weekend.  Take care.

Good morning,
 
I am glad you enjoyed the day with the Nikki, I cried and laughed as I read your post.  How was your evening sail?
 
Please keep us posted on how you are both doing.
 
 

Our evening sail was wonderful. She and I sat at the bow of the boat like the Titanic... Tzu of the World...Having the wind blow in our faces. We felt like we were on top of the world.
 We ate cheese, cold shrimp and gave her half of my Black n Tan beer. Which settled her down to take a snooze. Think she was intoxicated from that. She lapped at her share of the beer and demanded more! I gave in and let her have another shot.
 
I sat on the bow of the boat with her in my lap watching the sun go down, the birds settling in on their posts and flying home to nest for the evening, with Nikki in my arms like a baby. I listened to her soft snores, and funny sounds she makes when she sleeps. Caressed her soft fur, burried my face into it, giving her soft kisses. We just sat there for the longest time. Eventually the stars came out and still sitting on the bow of the boat staring at the nights sky all lite up while she slumbered, I softly cried.
 
I don't want to give her back to her creator! I really don't, but I know it is the best for my sweety tzu.
 
The next day, we decided to go visit her grandma and pop's house, so they can say their final goodbyes to their furry grandchild. Pop's made her bacon and eggs for breakfast, which she enjoyed, with a side of creamy grits. Something she loved as a special treat although never with bacon. We left there and went to the flea market with her in her buggy. Everyone had to stop us and speak to her and say how cute she was in her own buggy with her gogals, and sunday best on.

For luch we went to our favorite place and sat on the back deck over looking the St. Johns River. The bar/resturant that knows her and don't care if she's out back with me. The girls brought her, her own child's platter of chicken fingers. Peach yogurt for her desert.
She used to ride with me on the bike all the time. And when she started to get feeble, I stopped taking her on these rides with me.
Not this time. In her pouch attached to me on the front of my chest, her head sticking out, she rode like she once used too. Ears flapping in the breeze. If she got too much wind, she'd duck down in the ouch then op back up when she was ready. 
I used to have my pea pad rigged for her, so she was secure and yet could get out of the wind if needed, in a special container I built for her.
That is how she used to ride when we would go on poker runs or just for fun on runs and errands. When she could see, she would peek around me to see what was a head. She even had her own lid (helmet) Snap at bugs on the way.
 
This dog loves to ride anything that has wheels on it. Strap a skate board to her butt and she'd be happy.
 
Now it's Monday and I still don't have the energy or strength to take her to the clinic. I called my vet and told her this. She said, she would come to my home, all I needed to do is just call her when I am ready. The problem is I'm not ready and don't want to be ready. I have enjoyed our special time together and want to have a couple more days with her.
 
She's such a doll. I think having her put to sleep in her familiar surroundings with her brothers and sisters would be better for her.
 
I on the other hand am a basket case! I feel like I am loosing a huge part of myself and can feel myself falling into a depression.
I don't know how I am going deal with her being gone, even though I know in my heart I know it is the best thing for her.
 
 
 
 

Angel, I bet she looked so cute riding in her special pouch, ducking down and popping up, ears flying in the wind!  I could see you both having such a nice time.
 
My heart truly aches for you.
 
 

Tina the funny part of the whole ride was at one point I kept rubbing my chin cause something was bothering me. Darn near rubbed my chin slap off ! When I realized it was one of her ears flying straight up and under my chin. Tickles!

Hey Angel, just wanted you to know that I, and all of my crew, am thinking about you and your special girl. My tears are falling, and I share in your heartache. Just know you are loved, and I pray that you will have the Peace that Passes all Understanding.

I am so glad you were able to enjoy each other to the degree that you did  and build even more lasting memories.

My heart is breaking for you.  Please know you are not alone, you are in my thoughts, in my prayers.  I have to go to work tonite, but I will be thinking of you and Nikki, I am Catholic, so I stopped by church this afternoon and asked St.  Francis of Assisi to look out for Nikki. 

When I feel like I am ready to loose my nerves, I close my eyes and think of my maternal grandmother and say the prayer she taught me when I was a little girl, she passed away on January 19, 1979 while I was away at boarding school, ( I was 12 yrs old) and was not told of her death until 2 months later.  The prayer we used to say was "The Serenity Prayer." Following are the first lines of it, I hope you find strength in the words. 

"God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can and Wisdom to know the difference."  

Be strong my friend your idog family is here for you.

All the love from Houston, Texas. 

Romeo and Elizabeth.
 

Angel - my heart aches for you during this difficult struggle.  For any of us who've been in your place, we so totally understand the anguish.  I don't have any words of wisdom other than listen to your heart.  Maybe today isn't the right day, or even this week, but I think there will be a time when you realize that no matter how painful it is, it is the right thing to do.  Enjoy every moment you can until then.  

The Rainbow Bridge has helped me to enjoy even more my time with Shadow. He's only 3 years and 2 months but I know that one day, at least 10 years from now, it will be his time to go. I can't help but remember that finality. I've survived the passing of a pet, family, and friends. It's never easy. It hurts really bad, every time. But I do survive. And you will, too. And we'll be here for you.
 
To quote Shakespeare;
" 'Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."
 

I'm glad you guys had a great weekend and some more memories for the both of you.
 
It's never easy saying good-bye to the ones you love or knowing when it's time to finally let go and say your last  good-bye.  Just know we are here for you to help you through this hard time. Enjoy every moment you guys have left together.

 I always say that it's the "in between" time that hurts the most. 
I miss the smell, the fur, the bark, the special sound of her paws padding around the house.  Her sneeze, her soft brown eyes, the ever so subtle affectionate butt nudge, her tail high as she runs over the grass on a Spring day, her sitting on the jumpseat in my big rig, her waiting at the mailbox for me to fish out the bills, her lapping vanilla ice cream on every birthday...  You will miss a lot, but that's because, just as I had, you made a life with this dog that was full, happy, and filled with love.  Godspeed Nikki - Dancer will be there to show you around. 

 
First of all... I just want to tell you how sorry I am that you have to make that decision for Nikki.  It was something I prayed I'd never have to do.  She has been one lucky girl having you take her in after being abandoned... you have given her a wonderful life!!!  I'm glad you have received this sign and have also received peace after seeing it.  You both were blessed to have each other.
 
Big hugs to you... you're in my thoughts and prayers.

Angel, you've been on my mind.  How are you today?

Hello, how are things going? been thinking of you and Nikki.

I am so sorry!  I know it's very hard for you.  I do indeed think that the thing on the bottom looks like a sign of some sort.  *Hugs*

Angel, wondering how you are. Please let us know. I don't want you to go through this alone.