pumaward
Posted : 6/30/2006 3:59:20 PM
I grew up with dogs. We first had a rough collie named Tessa. I don't remember her, as she died young (she was sleeping under one of my uncle's trucks, I believe, and he didn't see her and ran her over). We got Kimo when I was 2. I don't remember him as a puppy but I do remember him following me around. I'd get on a bicycle and ride around with him running around with me. I taught him to jump over things and left and right (which I though we important skills for running along side my bike). We also go Meeko when I was young (3 or 4), and I don't remember her puppy stage. Meeko was, however, close to my "ideal" dog (I say close because she attacked my cats often enough, was somewhat dog aggressive, and was intollerant of other children if they didn't behave well around her). Anyone, I think I had this awesome foundation for loving dogs... and have for as long as I can remember. When I was 16, Kimo had gone deaf, and I'm pretty sure he had cataracts. He also couldn't control his bowel movements, and so, lived out on our enclosed porch. Every morning I would get up and clean up after him... sometimes he was even laying in it Anyway, one night, not long before a storm, I let him outside. At the time, it's just what we did... he didn't wander anymore (I know it was no where near responsible anyway). He went missing after about 15 minutes and we never saw him again. There were no tracks in the snow, no sign he'd been attacked by anything, and he wasn't anywear beside the road. I cried myself to sleep for weeks because I felt it was my felt and I prayed for his forgiveness.
Meeko passed away when I was 17, about 1.5 years after Kimo. I remember it quite clearly. I took her for a walk in the woods on Saturday, went to a paintball tourney Sunday. Monday she wasn't eating and was breathing heavily. We took her to the vet Tuesday... but it was too late. He gave us medication for an enlarged heart, but she died early Wednesday Morning. I feel terrible because of that too... she was crying and probably scared but I didn't sit with her through the night... instead I tried to get some sleep. The following morning, we had her cremated.
For 5 months, we were dogless. Being dogless was painful for me many days as I missed the companionship I got with Meeko and Kimo.
I kept asking if we could get a dog, but the answer was always no. But, I became more persistant.. I really wanted an Akita puppy, but couldn't find any (my parents told their friend that I only wanted a female, and her last male puppy sold fast). For a week, I scowered papers for either an Akita or Malamute puppy and checked petfinder every day to see if there were any for adoption in our area. None. Then, one day, I got the huge classifieds magazine and there was an add for Mal puppies, but they were in Maine... to make a long story short, we drove 4 hours to Buxton, ME to get Maddi.
Maddi isn't quite (*cough* hardly) the dog I had in mind. She doesn't like to cuddle and she is the apitamy of malamute temperment... after all, she had no training for the first 4 months of her life (Kimo was totally different, my dad got him at 8 weeks). I do regret not getting her sooner as I think I could have taught her some things better if she'd been younger, but she's made me understand dog behavior a lot more than I did. She made me understand the importance of socialization (she FLIPPED out when she first saw our neighbors). Often it's still rough, but I know (I mean hope) that in the next 6months to a year, she will be less exuberant puppyish and conduct herself in a more civilized manner ([sm=rotfl.gif]yeah right).
Anyway, this is a long post of rambling. I could have summed it all up by saying that I don't know how to live minus a dog or two.