Moving, at least for awhile.

Well we had a good, long talk. Lots of tears and legit reasons as to why we can't be together rightnow. It's a custody issue with his son, and the courts will really frown on this. His son is his world, he needs to keep everything as straight as possible. I am going to spend the weekend with him, say our (hopefully temporary) goodbyes, and then I'm gone to Texas. We're going to keep in contact and hopefully I'll boomerang right back, when I am feeling better. My prof. said my seat is always open in the program. Right now I'm just doing all I can hold it together. I spent the whole night crying so hard I couldn't even swallow. Dawn broke, and I'm going to be okay, though. I'm going to get better, and me and BF will find each other again.

As hard as it is....as much as I want to call him a creep....... I don't think any of us could blame him since his son is the issue here....no one would be happy if he lost him.  Your attitude is great even though you hurt so bad and cried so much.  I'm so happy though...that you have your mother to go to....another place to get away and another loving person. Besides T-Bone that is!!    For that you are lucky. 

You ARE going to be okay....I feel that you are so strong. I do hope you find some peace quickly.

You know, he is doing the morally correct thing. His son is just a baby and it's his responsibility as a father to protect him, take care of him. He feels awful, I feel awful, but I'm definitely not mad at him and I really get it. Funny as it is, he wouldn't be the kind of person I want a relationship with if he didn't put his son before everything. Catch 22! Circumstances change, we both have a feeling this isn't goodbye forever.

Though T-Bone won't have his own little boy, he get's not one but TWO buddy dogs to live with! A female lab, Buttercup, and a basset/heinz 57, Puppeh. Lots of space to roam free, a pool, etc. He's still gonna be happy (though he's gonna FREAK on the plane)

Beejou

Funny as it is, he wouldn't be the kind of person I want a relationship with if he didn't put his son before everything.

Those are BIG WORDS....and I'm proud of you for saying them.  

T-Bone being happy will also make  you happy!

Today is my last day in this house. I changed my address, got T-Bone cleared to fly... just shutting the house down. It's going to be very emotional to spend the weekend saying goodbye to BF, to friends there, and to Washington. I'm literally shaking with fear, but I refuse to let it paralyze me and panic keep me from moving forward. Please wish me strength.

I am giving BF my most prized possession, my antique French rosary (we are both Catholic). I hope when I give it to him he understands how important it is to me and what it means.

Just wanted to lend my support for you in this move.  Shoot me a pm if you need a shoulder to cry on at any point.  Safe travels. 

YOu are in my thoughts, have a safe flight. Deep breaths. Moving forward.  (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))  Let us know when you get in.

Courage is being afraid to do something but doing it any way, so you are truly courageous and I admire you. I've been in a similar situation regarding the move and having to say tearful good-byes. One foot in front of the other is sometimes all that can be mustered. We're all here to support you in this new journey. (((HUGS)))

 ((hugs)) and safe travels.

I admire you so much for the strength you have to move ahead....and love your attitude.

I wish you even more strength to get you thru any doubts or worries.  

Please let us know how you are doing.

 You are in my thoughts. I know you can do this. Stay Strong.

Not much advice to give you - sounds like you have your head on straight, even when your heart is swirling.  I can only say, from having moved more than 1500 miles three times each in the last 2 years (once toward love, once away from love) that you will survive and you will gain perspectives on yourself and your relationships and you will feel stronger and proud of yourself for your strength very soon.  Your resolve to keep upright and moving forward is your ace in the hole.  Hold on tight, and bury your tears in T-Bone whenever you need to.  You are not alone.  Hugs!

thanks for the support, everyone. T-Bone is having a fun time, and I'm trying to relax. This hasn't gotten easier as I hoped, but harder. Therapy starts soon and I am going to take a boxing class to release some of this anger and confusion inside of me. Coincidence has been very cruel since I've been here (Cold weather, dead turtles from the cold snap, found a dead dog ) but I'm trying to ignore it. One day at a time....

Beejou

Coincidence has been very cruel since I've been here (Cold weather, dead turtles from the cold snap, found a dead dog ) but I'm trying to ignore it. One day at a time....

Gosh....thats when you gotta wonder if someone is testing you out there.....but you ARE taking it one day at a time...and passing that test.