Bonita of Bwana
Posted : 7/30/2008 12:13:50 PM
You are not a horrible person. PERIOD. Please don't even go there. If you are bad enough that the cars keep breaking down what would that make folks who lose a loved one to cancer ...etc??
My Mom always told us God protects kids and drunks in accidents. Both are the farthest extreme from each other , right??
Sometimes Life Sucks. That simple. Not a tough concept. We would simply prefer that we had clean clear lines to follow.... when we were in school this many points gave us this grade.... nothing complicated about that. In real life we find folks who make a feeble effort and the ones who go way over the top getting the same results or the same "rewards" .
You need to learn to look inside and breathe or you will never, and I do mean NEVER survive life as we all know it. With wars and famines, plague and catastrophic weather events some how I can not see the Universe messing with you over a car. Kind of a waste of it's time wouldn't you agree?
I hate it that you are having to struggle right now, maybe it is training for something far bigger in the future? Maybe is it to keep you understanding no one is "safe" one of my daughters was nicknamed the "Teflon Kid" Nothing ever seemed to stick and boy did she deserve to have some of it stick!! After years of thinking she could beat any and every thing she is now paying the piper. I hugged her one day when she was crying over the dues she has to now pay and said "So sweetheart does it honestly suck to be you?" She agreed instantly... I smiled and asked her "Where does that put your two kids? Ar ethey part of everything that Sucks?" She went very pale then very calm and agreed that as hard as things are right now she has brought two awesome people into the world and they have many incredible things ahead of them...
Cars can be junked. We can do without, but everyday is a chance to see the grace and beauty we have been gifted with....
Hang in there this too shall pass , I promise you !!
Bonita of Bwana