I just went to a 16 yr.old's wake

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    Deb,
     
    When I was 16 one of my best friends committed suicide.  He had been unhappy, started taking drugs and they messed him up so much he killed himself.  It was a difficult time and even now, almost 10 years later, I light a candle for him on the anniversary of his death.  To be honest, I am not sure I will ever get over it, or stop wondering if I could have helped him more than I did, but I try to console myself with the hope that wherever he is now, he is happier and free of the pain that filled his eyes those last few months. 
     
    I am thinking of you.
     
    Kate
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    I am so sorry for the loss of this precious life.  Wish there were some way to reach them and make them not feel so hopeless....

    I lost a cousin...he was so handsome and smart, and had the world in his hands...or so I thought.

    One of my son's friends was killed by a drunk driver when he was in his first year of college at 18.  Another handsome, intelligent young man.  His Mom, whose life revolved around her 2 boys, couldn't deal with it, and drank herself to death, in spite of people who were trying to help.  It hurts to think about it....even now.
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    Thanks Deb. I again am really sorry for your loss.
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    Oh dear!  Deb, I don't know what to say but that the boy's family & friends are in my thoughts & prayers.
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    Kate, you couldn't do anything sweetie believe me I know. I think you will never get him out of your mind though, because you were at such an impressionable age, and your questioned your own mortality. He is happy now. keep crying, and remembering, but you really need to stop the "If I could of should ofs"  Grieve for him, all you want but let the anger and guilt go that's like a cancer to you
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    Annie you've said it. Isn't it terrible?