Saturday Chat 10-5-2013

I agree. You guys need kayaks for the river :) and speaking of that I need to pull together some kayak friends to do the river by us next week. We are almost in peak color time and the river is beautiful this time of year. Lucky for us the weather isn't that cool yet either.

My mood has been very blah and annoyed lately and I can't seem to kick it. This always happens around the fall and my bday. I hate getting older and dislike the darker shorter days. Since it happens every year you would think I could do something to hold the bad mood off by now but nope. Happens every stinking year. I do really need to figure out an action plan though because I can't deal with being aggregated all the time. Maybe a vacation is in order

My cheesy faced niece turns 2 today. We are having cake tomorrow so I need to go present shopping. Every time she gets her picture taken she puts on the biggest cheese face you have ever seen. It's hilarious.

My mood has been similar Julie.  Hadn't thought to blame it on the approaching fall.  But, the shorter days, even now, do tick me off.  Like that does me any good!

DS asked me twice last nite to pick him up some sugar when I went to pick up DH.  Did I remember?  NO!  So, I hit the grocery this morning before 9 and the mobs, so at least that part of the weekend chores is out of the way.  I know that the groceries are laid out to induce impulse buying and increased spending, but seriously?  Do I have to walk to the very far side and furthest back of the store to pick up a lousey bag of sugar?  That ticks me off too.

Julie, I know this is going to sound trite, but getting older sure beats the heck out of the alternative.  Sounds foolish, but after my second sister died suddenly a month shy of her 50th birthday, I was THRILLED to safely hit 50.  There were a lot of similarities between Wanda & I, (including the oddball names) so goofy as it sounds........  

On the same chipper note.....I've been really wondering lately if Mike had a serious medical condition that he wouldn't share with us.  No one will tell me, and it bothers me....guess I'm still trying to find the reason for his death.  Some days I do so well and have only happy thoughts of my son, but others.    I wish I knew how to do this and I sure wish it got easier.

Now, to be cheerful, dang the Red Sox opened up a gigantic can of whoop *** on Tampa yesterday!  I hope the momentum keeps going.  Winning another World Series will be worth being forced (by the superstitious DH) to eat hot dogs each and every game day for the next couple weeks.  Altho, I'm hoping very much that they just blast through the playoffs and get it done.  Even all beef hot dogs get old after a day or two!

OK, I think my chatter today has been totally mindless, so off to clean my deep freeze!  Bet ya'll wish you could join me!  Not.

I've been feeling the same funkiness that you guys mentioned and it always hits me about this time of year too. It's silly because our weather is actually gorgeous right not. I think some of mine is related to the holidays and not just the change in weather. I'm doing my best to fight it off and enjoy time outside. I did a bunch of yardwork yesterday and will be doing more today. Our biggest challenge is that we run out of room in the green waste and regular trashcan every week. Otherwise I'd be doing a whole lot more. As it is, we have a huge pile of branches that we need to run through the chipper. I'm tempted to do that myself but worried I'll cut off a finger :(

The change in the view after the Cottonwood tree came down wasn't nearly as bad as I anticipated. They were supposed to come back yesterday and take out a dead oak tree but never showed up. Hoping they might do that today.

Not much else going on around here. I hope everyone has a great Saturday.

Count me in the "blah mood" group.  A lot of my funk comes from things related to job dissatisfaction and indecision about what to do about it, so that's a year-round thing.  But I definitely get more blah as soon as the weather starts to turn, and we've sure had a dreary batch in the past 10 days. 

I used to love autumn when I lived in CT -- it was such a gorgeous time of year, and I didn't even mind that it meant winter was on its way because I actually enjoyed winter (for the most part).  I love snow, and we had our share of cold, SUNNY days.  But here, autumn is rather soggy (wet fallen leaves do not crunch under your feet), and it's just a prelude to several months of grey days.  Throw in the holidays when I'm so far away from family and friends, and I'm not a very optimistic person this time of year!

On a happier note, we've got sunny skies today and tomorrow, so I will get in the yard to do some much-needed weeding.  They've sprouted up everywhere thanks to the recent rain.  Ruby will be glad to lounge in the sun, too.  No other plans today other than to head out in a few minutes to meet a friend for breakfast.  The place is popular and always has a wait, but the food is good. 

Oops, I forgot to say that I'll be rooting for the Red Sox out here, too, Glenda!  I actually saw a car in a parking lot this week with Red Sox logos all over the windows -- not something you see often out here.

Also, I was going to ask why you wonder if Mike had a medical condition he didn't tell you about.  Is it mother's intuition?  I can't imagine having to process the loss of a child, so I can't offer any advice about how to handle it, but I'd say that however long it takes you to grieve, and in whatever manner, it's right for you (regardless of what others might think or say).  Hugs to you.

Some of his more recent music makes me wonder.  A song called Cancer and another Just another memory.  When I asked his brother, youngest stepson, he told me Mike didn't even have a doc there, but I know he did since he had RX's in his room for pain meds.  I'm probably just looking for some reason, when I'm not meant to know the reason.

Most days are really good, but every once in awhile someone says something that just makes me want to cry, triggers memories that are painful.  In reality, almost all our memories of Mike are good ones, it's just the loss of him that's sad.

I dunno.  Just wish I knew how to deal with the mantle of sadness that likes to settle in now and then.  Sigh.....

And, when we first moved to CA, we had MA plates on the van still, having moved from the Cape to Merced.  We went to Oakland for a game and people kept swarming around wondering did we REALLY drive from MA to see the game?  LOL!  Still sport the Red Sox plate holder and stickers!

sorry everyone is feeling so blah!

Its super hot here today - about 90* - feels very warm after having such a cool September.

Yea for kayaking :)

Bugsy & I went out this morning and it was fabulous. He has his own agenda now and is VERY confident. He went out for his toy at the outset and spotted a couple of ducks in the middle of the lake. Keeping in mind its a 650 acre lake, he decided to go after the ducks. I finally got him to head back towards me and he saw a goose. So off he went after the goose.

Having decided he wasn't going to catch that either he seemed to settle into 'just swimming', then he spotted an egret in the same place it was once before and he went after that. He's an equal opportunity bird hunter. It was quite some swim and then he had to swim all the way back LOL I've kept him quiet the rest of today so far.

Unlike all of you I feel fairly energized. Mom is still here and I am really trying to be patient and less apt to be irritated. Slightly successful hahaha DH is very moody. His daughter is due to have a baby on 10/15 but last chat she thought she'd deliver early. Now he's not had contact with her in a week or more. She has done this in the past but he thought she wouldn't do it again. I feel for him but I am going to kick him in the butt soon if he doesn't stop with the moods.

I am having to swallow that ALL my teams are having bad seasons this year. No matter the sport or the league its going to be a long year

Karen - I just have to say that your pictures and stories are so inspiring to me. In my fantasy world, I'm out on a lake kayaking too but I can't seem to get the nerve up to just go do it. I wish you lived closer and could give me the a needed kick in the pants. :)