Hello everyone,
I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to type my request, and I'm finding myself being rather emotional with all the thoughts racing around in my head. It's been a rather crazy month since we scheduled my hysterectomy. And now that it is less than a week away - I'm stressed to the nines with everything that has to be done before we leave Friday morning. When I first contemplated going to Houston for my surgery, I was nervous about being so far from home for something so major. But after finding out that Dr. I can do my surgery as minimally invasive as possible, I felt a lot better. It still isn't easy, and the stress of not only preparing the house for after the surgery, but also having to pack everything that I'll need being away from home - it's nuts. I need list to keep track of the list!
I have drawn strength and hope from the help and support that the I have seen the wonderful members offer over my time here. So I am asking for prayers and lots of good vibes as my husband and I go through this. Friday is all pre-op appointments with the doctor, anesthesiologist, and the hospital. We are staying with some friends over the weekend, and then Sunday we head to the hotel close to the hospital so that we can report bright and early Monday morning for my 7:30 am surgery. Bless hubby's heart, I know he is nervous too, but he has been such a rock. And the wonderful friends that we are staying with have been an absolute blessing. Wendy has a day of doggy fun planned for Saturday - a dog show in the morning, and a puppy shower in the afternoon for her very pregnant Min Pin! Lots of fun things to keep my mind off of Monday. Thank God for wonderful family and friends!
Since I was raised with the belief that you are specific in your prayer requests, I'm going to ask for prayers over my concerns:
The first, of course, is that my stress goes away, and that I am able to get everything done that I need to do before I leave. I'm also feeling like crap, so that doesn't help at all. Part of that stress too, is that the puppies and kitty cat behave themselves for my Mom while we are gone. Especially that Roo Bear's diabetes stays in remission and the stress of us being gone doesn't cause a relapse.
Prayers also for my Mom to help her be calm. It is killing her that she can't be with me during the surgery and hospital stay, but her back won't allow her to travel that far and to sit for that long. I don't like it either, but I would feel worse if she messed up her back.
Prayers that my diabetes stays under control, and specifically that I don't have any hypoglycemic episodes while under anesthesia or out of it from the pain meds. I want my blood sugar to stay between 100-200 while I am undergoing the surgery and recovery. To say that I am terrified of what my blood sugar is going to do is an understatement.
I don't react well to anesthesia, and any pain medication just lays me out. I am praying that the anesthesiologist will be able to handle my anesthesia so that I don't react badly coming out from under - that last time was very painful and scary. I am also praying that my pain will be minimal so that I can function and be able to monitor my diabetes without fear of not being aware of any problems.
And lastly, that God will guide Dr. I's hands and he will be able to perform the surgery as planned without any need for an abdominal incision or extensive repairs to other organs. Also, that he will be able to find and remove all the endometriosis that has been causing such pain and problems!! I don't want to go through with this surgery and it not do any good. I want to feel better, and I want my life back!
I'm also concerned about the instant menopause that this surgery is going to put me in. I can't do any hormone replacement therapy due to the endometriosis, so I am praying for minimal effects. Please don't let it be bad! I've stayed away from those thoughts so I can get through this, but I am so scared. 
Also that the pathology report comes back with no findings - no cancer, no problems!!!
I know I am sharing a lot of personal information, but I feel the need to ask for prayers on these specific items. I am trying to stay positive, but this is so scary. I've done my best to inform myself, but it is so hard to not let the 'possibles' scare the tar out of me! I'm going to be busier than who knows what over the upcoming days. I will do my best to get on here as soon as possible to let everyone know how things are. Thank you for your prayers.
Amy