calliecritturs
Posted : 9/18/2008 6:35:36 PM
daisyprincess -- honestly, I know what Samshine and some of the others are saying is difficult. I had a *very* similiar situation when Muffin the Intrepid lost his hearing and we had to have his ears removed. I agonized over it for a YEAR.
WHAT IF?? What if his ears were to get well? If we remove them they can't! WHAT IF ... what if he CAN hear something .. aren't i being mean?
It came down to a point where we literally had to remove the ears or lose *him* to a potential abscess. After the first ear was removed **I WAS SOOOOOO ashamed of myself**
Why? Because I delayed so long. *sigh*
He was SO much different after that surgery -- it was suddenly SO OBVIOUS how much intense *pain* he had been in for soooooo long. Shoot, longer than we'd had him! We had never *seen* him pain-free. He was like a puppy again. "whoo hooo I DON'T HURT!"
The second ear followed on in infection very soon after (his were allergy triggered -- it wasn't like glaucoma that is simply in both eyes) and I will *never EVER* forget the night he woke up in the middle of the night and began to SCREAM in pain. The ear ache was back.
I scheduled the 2d ear's surgery THAT day. It was sooner than they usually do them together (ear ablations are an enormous surgery -- far far far greater than the eye removal - like 4 hours each ear under anesthesia) but we didn't want to wait because he *****WAS in pain!!!****
To you, blindness is the worst thing in the world. To a dog, honestly it is quite minor. This dog isn't depressed over losing its sight. It IS IN PAIN.
The meds? Frankly there are side effects long term -- and what on earth are you preserving? **nothing**. The eye damage is done. Two vets agree.
Give her a break -- have the eyes removed and let her be OUT of pain. She's telling you she hurts and she's scared **because** she hurts. The eye drops HURT. Why would continuing them even be an option? Making her have further surgery to remove the fluid and continue eye drops that hurt? WHY?
Daisyprincess -- truly, please see it from her point of view. The drops hurt. The eyes don't see and are a source of pain. It is within your grasp to relieve that pain permanently.
Have you started to help her learn to live blind? It's not impossible. I've had several blind dogs (both Billy and Kee are rapidly becoming blind -- Kee has almost no sight at all any more -- I"m not just whistling in the dark here). You just have to help them learn.
But right now -- your job as her 'mom' is to let her be without pain. Truly -- if you examine your own reasons for wanting a miracle thru reducing the pressure it is likely because you think she *might* see. But at what cost? pain?
She's a dog. Dog's eyes are *not* nearly as good as ours. They see very little ... but she has a nose!! Teach her to 'see' with her nose. It's do-able if she's not in so much pain that she can't think.
I'm not trying to be hard-hearted here. I DO ... ohhhh I SO understand how you feel. Because for a year I just couldn't even *imagine* having Muffin's ears removed. It just seemed so mean.
But on the other side of it -- when I realized how much pain *I* had put him thru by delaying? I was completely ashamed of myself. His BEST years were after those darned ears were gone. He became our family "watch dog". If Muffin said it was outside IT WAS. The other dogs deferred to him because his sense of smell was SO acute they knew he left them in his dust.
He was 6 -- and he grew in confidence **after** he was deaf. Because he didn't hurt ANY more.
You can help her not hurt. Really ... please consider this carefully. We aren't trying to say mean and nasty things to you. Your first responsibility to her is to keep her out of pain ... isn't it?