calliecritturs
Posted : 6/10/2006 9:24:40 PM
I was just bee-bopping in to post on this, Tracy. Thanks for asking.
Took Billy back up to have his ear looked at and that is improving. BUT, since we'd begun to back off the pred, we checked his blood and it PLUMMETED back down to 21. ACK!!!!
So *sigh* there apparently IS an auto-immune part to this after all. Back up goes the pred. *HUGE* sigh.
I don't think you 'failed' with Tonka -- I truly don't believe that. I don't think we can kick ourselves when we did do the best we COULD for a dog.
I do think somehow in this life we ARE expected to learn from our ignorances and errors -- so altho I don't think you 'failed' Tonka at all -- I think you did learn something to be wary of 'next time'.
Like with Muffin -- I never knew to make SURE we kept track of his blood pressure during the renal failure. When it went high it made the toxicity far worse. By the time we 'found' it he was too toxic to keep anything down. Particularly not high blood pressure meds.
Did I fail him? No. I don't think so -- I think we did OUR **best**. But ... HUGE BUTT ... I will scream down the ceiling to every single person who ever posts and has a dog with renal failure TO WATCH BLOOD PRESSURE.
I learned the lesson -- and hopefully it will help another dog. To a degree in this life, I think the hard balance is between "what will be ... will be" and "doing your absolute BEST to 'be' all you can be".
You didn't fail -- you just didn't know enough and got frustrated with your choice of vets.
*laughing* I could get royally p.o.'d with 90% of the vets in THIS town. And I'm WAY too verbal about some of them.
Anyone would think I wasn't shy or something ... *sigh*