tacran
Posted : 1/7/2008 12:00:36 AM
I'm so sorry for your loss. You'll find lots of people who understand here.
Losing a beloved dog is heartbreaking, and those final moments can haunt you for a long while. We lost our boy nearly two years ago; holding him as he took his last breath was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. But, I'm so grateful that the last thing he experienced was feeling our touch and hearing our voices.
As for being very emotional when it's not your typical behavior --- I was the complete mess I knew I would be, but my husband was just as distraught. He's very "Clint Eastwood-like," even tempered, not one to cry, etc. But the amount of Kleenex we went through in our house in the following days and weeks was huge. Like you said, your relationship with your dog was the longest one of your life. And I bet in many ways, it was the most sincere and satisfying, too. That's just how it is with our animals. Take care, and may you feel better each day as you remember Odie with smiles.