Sad First Post... Odie: April 1996 - January 2, 2008

Rainbow Bridge

The Rainbow Bridge is the theme of a work of poetic prose written some time between 1980 and 1992, whose original creator is unknown. The theme is of an other-worldly place to which a pet goes upon its death, eventually to be reunited with its owner.
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    Sad First Post... Odie: April 1996 - January 2, 2008

    I was looking for dog training tips for my 6 month old lab mix and I ran across this forum while I was searching on Yahoo.  I figured that before I ask my training questions for the pup, I should talk about my oldest friend Odie that I had to say goodbye to yesterday.  The reason I say my oldest friend is because at 21 years old, I haven't had a friendship or a relationship that has lasted as long as we had Odie.  He was a German Shepard and he was the friendliest, most gentle dog I had ever seen.  He started feeling sick a few nights ago, and started throwing up in the house.  We took him to the vet first thing yesterday morning.  They ran tests all day, and ultimately ended up doing an ultrasound in which they found he had a large tumor on his spleen.  also, they said they believed he had started bleeding internally because of the spleen problem.  They told us that spleen removal surgery was possible, but extremely risky since his blood platelet level was so low.  He could have easily bled to death during the surgery.  We didn't want to make our old friend spend his last days going through painful surgery and recovery.  Since the vet said by just waiting and not doing anything he could have easily died from internal bleeding, we decided to get him put down.  He was a family dog, but I was the only one that could be with him when it happened.  God granted me the strength to act like nothing was wrong while he was awake.  I held him tight and told him what a good boy he was.  They last thing he did was look up at me with those eyes that I will never forget and lick my face.  As soon as it was over, I broke down.  I'm a fairly big, non emotional guy but I held on to him and cried like a baby for 10 minutes or so before I could get myself to leave.  I felt so horrible because his last day was spent in a vet's office getting tests run on him.  When they brought him out, he tugged and tugged trying to go toward the door because he just wanted to go home.  I'm having trouble sleeping and I haven't eaten much of anything today.  He was such a good boy, and it didn't matter how old he was, it still hurts so bad to let him go.

     

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    I'm so sorry for your loss,it's so very hard having to let go. You did the right thing by not making your baby suffer thru an operation. From the sound of it,he had a good life with you. We will keep you and Odie in our prayers.

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    So sorry about Odie!  Thoughts and prayers for you, Odie and your family!  I haven't lost a pet since I was a kid and my little Maltese, Tabitha will be 14 tomorrow and I worry about her so much.  I hope I'm as brave as you were.  Again, sorry and our prayers are w/ you!

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    Wow -- Odie, you did good boy ... what an awesome tribute.  Thank you so much for sharing with us about him.  And altho I'm sorry such unfortunate news brought your first post, please feel welcome here. 

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     I'm so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to let them go but you did the right thing for him. Run free Odie.

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    We understand your pain. We are sorry!

    Please find peace in that you held him tight and he licked your face. He didn't understand at that time that it was the last lick he would give you..... you gave him the assurance that he was being loved. Bless you for that.  Please hold on to that and try to find some peace in that.

    You will miss him for a long long time...probably always. I still miss my old dogs....it just gets easier with time.

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    MJE0409 so sorry for you're loss I know what you are going through I just lost my Princess the day after christmas and it's hard because she was my best friend I have 3 other dogs who I love to death but Princess was mine my parents got her for me as a graduation present in 1997. I won't tell you it's gonna be easy because it hasn't for me I still cry I didn't eat for 6 days I drank water but I didn't want to eat I am eating little these days but I have found ways of feeling better by making picture's and getting a digital picture frame and making other things in Princess' memory also went to walmart and I am having a heart charm made with her picture sketched into the charm still waiting for that takes 4-6weeks but can't wait to have that.

    I am truly sorry for you're loss.

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    I too am sorry for your loss. We lost out GSD girl in October of 2006 at age 11 to the same condition, so I feel your pain.

    Run Free Odie.

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    I'm so sorry for your loss.  You'll find lots of people who understand here. 

    Losing a beloved dog is heartbreaking, and those final moments can haunt you for a long while.  We lost our boy nearly two years ago; holding him as he took his last breath was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do.  But, I'm so grateful that the last thing he experienced was feeling our touch and hearing our voices.

    As for being very emotional when it's not your typical behavior --- I was the complete mess I knew I would be, but my husband was just as distraught.  He's very "Clint Eastwood-like," even tempered, not one to cry, etc.  But the amount of Kleenex we went through in our house in the following days and weeks was huge.  Like you said, your relationship with your dog was the longest one of your life.  And I bet in many ways, it was the most sincere and satisfying, too.  That's just how it is with our animals.  Take care, and may you feel better each day as you remember Odie with smiles.

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    Thank you everyone for your kind words.  Its 5 days later it has gotten a little easier but not much.  We have Riley (a 6 year old husky-shepard mix) and Alley (a lab-unknown mix).  We have been spoiling them a lot lately.  They get to come inside and lay on the couches whenever they want and we take them to the park to play daily.  If it weren't for them I'd be a lot worse off then I am.  The first 3 days were terrible.  I literally couldnt go 2 minutes without replaying the whole scene at the vet's office in my head again.  It's still so hard, but its slowly starting to sink in.  I was so upset right after it happened because when Odie was in the office and I could tell he just wanted to go home.  I'm starting to believe that he is home now, and I know he is at peace. 

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    I'm so sorry about your loss and just reading your post brought back memories of going thru a similar situation. There's no heartache like that of watching your best friend slip away but you truly did the kindest thing for him and he's free from suffering now. Eventually the good memories replace the sadness and you will smile more.

    Run free Odie.

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     Most of us who spend our lives in the company of dogs, and establish close bonds with them, are affected this way when we lose them.  I'm sad that your first post here had to be about the loss of such a good friend. but glad to welcome you to a group of people who are as committed to the well being of their dogs as you obviously were to yours.  It seems you are already one of us. 

    Run free, Odie, you were a well loved dog! 

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    I'm so sorry about Odie. He sounded like a great dog, and he knew how much he was loved.

    Run free, Odie.  

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    I'm starting to believe that he is home now, and I know he is at peace. 

     

    Yes,,,he IS home now...and he CERTAINLY is at peace.  And may peace be with you too!

    As Ann pointed out you seem to be one of us....and we would love to have you here to discuss Odie AND your other dogs.   We would love to see pictures too....we love all pictures of pets here.

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    I don't know what to say that hasn't been said already.  I just keep looking @ his picture & crying.  Run free, Odie.  I'm sure my heart girl was one of the first to greet him @ the Bridge.  He's pain free now & IS home.  ((HUGS))