Brownie

Hi I dont know if you got my pm or not when you write to us can you see a picture of Browie? im not sure how to put one on there but i did add 2 in the photo gallery
 
sandy
 
 

I PM'd you with my e-mail address.
 
I do hope you email me. I can see by your posts you are deeply affected by the loss of your beloved Brownie, and rightfully so.
 
I or rather, we, cry along with you and your family.
 
Hugs,
Angel

we're so sorry for your loss...
Ashley and mom, always keep your memories of Brownie with you...she'll always be in your hearts....she's in a place where she's not hurting anymore...
 
...Talus and I send loving hugs and prayers for your family....
 

thank your for your prayers you may see brownies picture under the new photos we do think about her all the time non stop.
 
thanks again ,
sandy,Ashley, Buddy, and Brownie

Sandy, Ashley & Buddy:
 
I saw your pictures of Brownie tonight - I can tell how sweet she was. I love the picture of her in the helmet.  We all know how deeply you miss her - I well remember those early days after losing our first furkid of driving home from work and knowing my home wasn't the same. It is very, very hard, but you eventually can remember them with more fondness then pain. As others have said, it never quite goes away, you never miss them any less, but it does get better - less intense.
 
 

Hi ,
yes she was so sweet and she was my best friend like no other I keep thinking about getting another dog for Buddy so he wont feel alone but the only thing is i know i wont find another dog like Brownie, and wont even come close looking like here. I printed out a 8x10 picture today and i stuck it on a door where she used to sleep every day that way it would be there for me too look at it when i go see Buddy and  its there for him too, like he knows what it is right? well im trying to keep her alive so many ways ,but the only thing I dont do is feel her food dish but I did put her name on it and its on the clothes dryer I was thinking about putting it in the front yard where she like to rest in during the day and waited for me to come home from work  those pictures are her good ones I do have some was taken a day before we had to say goodbye sweet browniegirl. I even have the picture of her on my desktop i want her to know im always thinking of her all the time ,and i mean all the time . I can just here her and I can see how she walked coming up to me I was sitting in the back yard yesterday with buddy and I was looking wow there is the path from the back yard to the front yard where she always walked Buddy never walk in the same spot so I knew that she left that for me to remember her by.
the things i remember and think about all the time. Today we went the my inlaws where she is burried at and we went to talk to her and told her how much we miss her and love her and wishing she was still here with us today.
we even got a card from the vet today saying how sorry he was for our loss that was nice. but I sent him 2 picture of Brownie one that you seen and one of her grave. and I told him I needed some answers which I couldnt talk to him when I picked her up may10th  well thanks for writing
 
Sandy, Ashley, Buddy

browniegirl, I think your vet did exactly the right thing, and though it's hard, you should know that very few Goldens live as long as yours did.  I suspect that it was your relationship, and the love you gave her that kept her going so long.  You are so young, and will hopefully have a long life ahead of you, too, but you will meet your sweet dog again someday in the distant future...till then, just put her in a special place in your heart where all good dogs belong.

Browniegirl,
How long? 8 years later your story still lets me cry just a little for my little old man. But it isn't that painful, burning, horribly sick crying that you are probably doing now. It was maybe 6-8 months before I really stopped feeling sick for the loss of my sweet friend. Forpaws point is really the same as mine. The grief doesn't end, it changes. It becomes a mellower, easier feeling to bear. For many young people like yourself the loss of a beloved pet is probably one of the first really painful, heartfelt losses. Sometimes these are the hardest lessons to learn and they take the most time. Regarding all of her problems, please open your heart to the belief that maybe Brownie told YOU when she had to go...rather than the other way around. I think it's always a point where the suffering is more painful than the love of life is invigorating. Then they choose to go their own way. I was darn close to losing my newest dog (at only 15 months old) just a couple weeks ago. I thank Buddha it was not his time, that his love of life was greater than his suffering. I know how you hurt now but it's just for now. You'll be surprised that one day (a day which seems far away now) you'll be enjoying your memories rather than suffering with your pain.

I've buried several people, family and friends. My almost 17 year old cat had to be put to sleep in Feb of 2005. A few months to a year for the sharp, heart-wrenching pain to stop. But you will always remember them. For me, the pain of my losses make sweeter the love of the loved ones I have now. I know, sometime in the future, it may be Shadow's time. And I will be there when they give him the shot and the life seeps out of his body. And I will feel excruciating pain. And I will cry like a big, hairy baby with a moustache. And, probably, sometime after that, I will rescue another misunderstood dog that just needs a loving home and the best attention and care I can muster. Having Shadow around made it easier getting over my cat's death, as I had his needs to attend to, his exuberant energy to make me play and laugh, and his noble devotion to inspire me.

Things will get better with time and you won't ever forget your special loves.

Ashley and Sandy, I'm just now reading your post about the loss of your sweet Brownie.  Please accept my belated sympathy.  I feel the sadness of your loss, too.  We had to send our precious boy to the Bridge on January 17 this year, and 4 months later, the pain is still part of my daily life.  As Amy said, some of us do things that others think are a bit worrisome - I sleep with Tonka's ashes if my husband is away, and I put them in the sunny spots he used to like to snooze in.  I talk to him all the time.  To the rest of the world, I'm back to my "old self," but as someone else said (Amy, again I think), I am not the same person.  A big piece of me broke off and will not be fully mended, no matter what other furbabies enter my life. 
 
The grief for me now isn't the crushing kind like it was initially.  I can get out of bed and function a normal day.  But the nights are still very, very hard.  I don't sleep well most of the time.  And the deep pain is just under the surface - I can be fine for the majority of the time, but it doesn't take much for it to rise right to the top again, like hearing other i-doggers describe their losses, or other emotional stories (even happy ones) of special animals. 
 
It's not an easy process -- for sure, the hardest thing I've experienced, even more than some family member's deaths.  This is a wonderful site for finding sympathetic people.  My heart goes out to you and your remaining dog.  Take care of each other, and run free, Brownie.  Your family misses you.

thanks for your letter , and we do have her close to our hearts and that is something no one can take from us.So how long does Goldens live for any ways?  we did get a card from the vet sat and i did write him a 3 page letter looking for answers and i sure do hope he can help me on that . thanks again
 
 
Sandy,Ashley, Buddy

Thanks you Tracy for your note, you can see pictures of Browniegirl on the new pictures. there are 2 of them. and we are sorry to hear your pet . well at least you have the ashes we dont we burried her at my inlaws farm about few hundred feet from the house. We put alot of things on the grave and a marker on it also. And we have also printed a picture of her and put it next to Buddy that way i can talk to her all the time there are alot of times i will be driving and i can just see her face and that is when i breakdown. and there is a path in the yard where she used to walk to to front the other day it dawned on me that is what he has made our other dog Buddy never walked in the same spot then i started to think wow Brownies Path , that made me feel kinda good but i still sit out side and waiting for her to come around the corner but No Brownie,
 
thanks... for caring
Sandy, Ashley , Buddy

I too am sorry for you loss I had a chihuahua named Paco I wanted one for so long and i worked with this guy that his wifes dad had a litter so i went over there he was the last one left he was so tiny he fit in my hand we connected instintly he rode in the truck with me and my ex husband all the way home he played and growled at me just having the best time this was in November of 1999 well he was only 5 weeks when we got him when it came time to get his shots i took him to the vet and they did the usual check over and found out he had a hear murmor i stood there and cried so hard he was my buddy i loved that dog more then my ex i think LOL but anyway they said that i could either put him down or give him a chance no guarantee how long he would live of course i couldnt put him down well as time went on me and him just got closer and closer he went everywhere with me not matter what i had taught him so many tricks he slept on my pillow next to me no matter where i was he was with me well his condition got worse he would pass out if he got too excited so i took him back to the vet and they put him on medication i even spent the money to see a specialist to see if any possible way of fixing his heart i didnt care what kind of money it would take i was going to do it but to my saddness they couldnt do anything for him well i kept him as calm as a chihuahua could be but i treated him normal we played he loved fetch he loved to speak and he loved to pester the lab and when he would be barking and i always seemed to know when he was going to pass out and i would run out there and he was always in my arms when he came too and he would always give me a kiss well he got so bad the the vet said that it could be anytime so i babyed him and took him out to potty so he wouldnt have to use the steps he was having trouble breathing at this point well for the last 3 days of his life i really dont think i slept at all i fed him nothing but chicken his favorite and sat with him all that i could when i didnt have to work well knowing the end was near we went to the store and got wood to make him a coffin and i prayed that i wouldnt be the one that decided when he would go i wanted him to decide that was very important to me well we got home that saturday and left everything in the truck so i could hurry and see him and there he was waiting for me i gave him his medication and he wanted in my lap he sat there and my lab came over and he loved to nip at him when he was in mommys lap he nipped at him and wagged his tail and died right there in my arms my husband at the time wanted to run him to the vet and try to bring him back and i said no he was in misery for just a few days he chose to go to the rainbow bridge where he could play without passing out and he died when he was ready i couldnt bring him back just to be selfish and make him suffer anymore i sat and held his little limp body untill they got his final bed made and buried him out back with pictures and some of his toys except his tennis ball which i still have still with the fuz pulled up because he was too little to carry it any other way and his collar sits wrapped around it to this day on his memorial of a angle dog with the plaque that i had made for him with the rainbow bridge saying on it in rememberance of that awufl day in april 2001 in the mean time before he died we got a female chihuahua in hopes for him to live long enough for them to breed so i could have at least a little part of him on earth with me but he died before she went into her first heat now for the moral of all this sadness about a week later my mother in law who has passed since then too gave me money and i found the meanest chihuahua boy that no body wanted but for some reason i did well my little girl went into heat a few months later they had 5 puppies in october of the same year with a lot of patience with that mean chihuahua cricket i turned him around to be the most presious sweetest and smilingest dog next to paco that ive ever had and we ended up keeping 2 of the puppies and when my mother in law passed the one i gave her came home too as much as it hurt to loose paco i also thank him fate took him but he went so i could save cricket and then i got 2 more too that all are healthy and happy and are almost 5 years old and act like their all still puppies so i thank him too if he wouldnt of picked then to pass on then i wouldnt of gotten cricket and already had sammie then they had gizmo sampson and zoe and they everyday make me laugh some how and everyday i thank paco for them it hurts but i totally belive in everything happens for a reason. Paco and Brownie are playing at the rainbow bridge together happy healthy and waiting for us and we will see them again when we pass. I still miss my Paco i cry as i type this but i do know that someday we will be together again I love you Paco!

i am so sorry for your loss,
 
it is sometimes hard to tell if a dog is ill until it's too late and you did do the right thing, she was very unwell.
 
she knew you loved her and by helping her in this time of need even though it must have been very painful you have just shown that you love her even more.
 
she is happy now and no longer in pain.
 
i hope you get through this hard time together, it's never easy losing a pet but very easy to blame ourselves.
 
Rest in peace sweet brownie [sm=angel.gif]you were a much loved doggy.
 
 
 
felicity

Hello,

browniegirl, we are very sorry your loss.
just know that she is better now, all those problems are gone. she misses you as you miss her. but she is not alone, she has all her other animal friends with her that have gone before her.

I (we - my wife and I) just joined here.
I don't know why I picked this part of the forum to read 1st. but, for whatever reason, I did.
I want to thank Glenda Ron2 and others for what they wrote in this thread (above).
We had to put our very much loved dog down recently due to cancer. a lot of what you wrote helps a lot.
I do not want to take from browniegirl's thread, so I will start my own elsewhere, but I wanted to know that what you write here helps many.
thank you,
Koz