tacran
Posted : 5/5/2006 12:37:25 AM
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know the heartbreak you're feeling, the empty house, the guilt, the second-guessing, the what-ifs. We had to say goodbye to our precious boy in January after a rapid failing in his health and a scary, frustrating time of not knowing exactly what was wrong, having to decide what to do, wondering if we did the right thing, etc. etc. My heart goes out to you and everyone else in your household (people and pets) who are mourning Raider's absence.
As awful as the guilt feels right now (and I still struggle with that every single day), the one thing I'm grateful for is that I was with my baby when he left us. Yes, it was in a horrible, flourescent-lit vet office, but at least he heard our voices and felt our hands on him right til the end. I have to believe that they feel our love at that time. I can't imagine the devastation I'd feel if I wasn't there.
A silent, empty house is a terrible thing to face, and it's only slightly easier now, nearly 4 months later. Hold on to your other dog; give each other comfort, and picture Raider in your mind running happily at the Bridge, with no pain, enjoying the fields and sun. He will have many friends to keep him company until you meet again.
Take care.