Saying goodbye hurts so much

It is a very difficult decision to make, and your family is very brave.  Blue sounds like a wonderful boy.  You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you so much for your kind words.  Having Blue die in my arms was one of that hardest things I have ever done. My dad, his wife, and I were all there comforting Blue and talking to him as he passed away.  It has been very hard to deal with this loss, I have cried over and over replaying Blue's death in my mind.  I pray I will begin to remember his life with a smile instead of with tears. 
 
After Blue's death, Felony crawled into a little crevice between the couches.  She seemed to act strangely and sort of afraid.  She acted lethargic in the days following Blue's death, do you guys think that is normal? I think maybe she icked up on the intense emotions we were all feeling.  Thank you again, for the kind words and condolences, guys.  I am printing this entire thread for my father to read.  For all of you who have lost your own beloved friends, I am deeply sorry for your own loss.
 
I am going to attempt to post some pictures of Blue for you all to see. 
 
Blue and Felony a few months back:
 

 
Also a few months back.  Blue could still get up then:
 

 
The following pictures were taken the day we lost Blue:
 

 
Blue and my step-mom
 

 
Saying goodbye to an old, devoted friend
 

 
I knew I turned to the right people for comfort and understanding.  Thank you again guys.
 
Love, Jenny

Gosh Jenny, looking at those pictures I kept thinking I wish I could've hugged him just once and told what a great boy he was.  I know you all did plenty of that though and he was surrounded with love and kindness when it mattered the very most.  I hope you and your family start to enjoy some happy memories soon.  It takes time to get beyond the sadness, but it really does ease up as each day goes by.
 
I'm not surprised that Felony sensed the strong emotions in the room and probably detects the sadness you're feeling.  When we lost our lab, Jake, our other lab, Buffy was really mopey for quite awhile.  I spent more time playing with her and talking to her (as much for her as for me) but I was still so sad and worried for her, that I think she sensed it and was upset.  It just takes time for the whole family to heal. Hugs to all of you and lots of kisses to Felony.

What a wise and noble face in those photos.  I'm sure he will be surrounded by lots of special animals at the Bridge who will be drawn to such a stately gentleman! 
 
I can't give any advice regarding your dog's reaction, as we only had one dog.  But it sounds like Felony is responding to the level of emotion all around him, and that's entirely understandable. 
 
I can relate to what you said about replaying Blue's death in your mind and continually crying over the memory.  I had the same pattern for a few weeks - most definitely the worst was in the first couple weeks.  Within hours of losing Tonka, my husband kept pointing out "happy" memories, recounting when he did this or that, etc.  I tell you, I nearly socked him one -- the LAST thing I felt like doing was sit around chuckling over funny moments we'd shared with him.  But, eventually, the pain subsided from the kind that literally made me collapse in tears, and now (6 months later), I can smile when I think of happy memories.  The tears are still a regular part of my days, but they are more balanced now.
 
Thanks for sharing the photos - Blue was a beautiful dog.  My best to you and your dad and step-mom.  Take care.

An extremely sad story.  Sorry to hear this.  Its bad enough to lose one, but I could not imagine knowing that day it was going to occur.. oh how bad the dread must have been.  At least you know he is at peace now. 

the hardest part of love is loving enough to let something go...  i am so very sorry.  may you find comfort in your memories

How ironic.  I just typed the above message yesterday evening.  Our beloved beagle passed away this morning, from complications of diabetes.  It happened so suddenly and we are beside ourselves.  I am feeling empty. 
 
Perhaps our Usdi and your Blue are running together up there.